Just a short one!

So today is the day.  I am running in the Marine Corps Marathon (oh yeah, did I mention it'll be during a hurricane? :))

I couldn't sleep much last night, but I kept the lights off and stayed in bed, just resting.  I'm so nervous!  I know I can do this, but I'm still nervous.  This is going to be all over the place, so sorry!!

I have come a long way from where I was just six years ago.  I know I could have trained a little better, a little harder, I could have lost a little more weight, but even so.  I am not that same person I used to be.  That person who was hurting so very much inside who was just going through the motions of living.  I never thought I'd be me again after what I went through when I was 19.  I wanted to be that same person, before everything.  Before everything that caused me to gain so much weight and get up to 298.  I've now realized that I cant be that same person before but I can be a new me - a much better and happier me.  And that is what I have done.  My life isn't perfect and there are still things I am in the process of making better.  But I am happier.  I am a person who signed up for a MARATHON!  I know it's the 2nd one I've been in, but it'll be my first one I finish!  In all my life, this is not who I expected to be at 31.  I never thought I'd be an athlete.  I was the fat girl who HATED running, who hated gym class, who was always last.  Who would be the last one doing the running loop we had to do in 10th grade gym class - while EVERYONE was there waiting for me. 

I used to weigh 298 POUNDS.  TWO pounds from 300!  And now, I may not be at my goal weight, but today I'm going to accomplish a much bigger goal. 

Thank you all for the support!!  :) And thank you to my dear wonderful husband.  I wish you were here with me.