It's been awhile since I've posted anything here. I don't know why - because I have been running fairly regularly late and enjoying it too!
Last weekend I finally broke through my mental block of going further than 3 miles. I did 5 miles last Friday and then another 6 on Sunday. And it felt good. Really good. The best thing about both of those runs was my pace. My pace for the 5 miles was just under 12 min miles and the pace for the 6 miles was around 12:30 min miles. I also have never run 6 miles without having to stop and walk. So I was really excited about that!
I'm still struggling with my eating. I've noticed that I tend to eat the same amount as my husband when we have dinner. It's sometimes just easier to make the same amount of servings and just split it evenly. But I don't always exercise as much as him and I certainly don't need to eat as much as him either. So I've been trying to cut back on my servings at dinner. Last night I did really well. I made 4 servings of our meal (lol it was not a healthy meal at all - but that's ok!) and I portioned out my 2 servings but then put one of them in the fridge for my lunch today. And that one serving was enough. I was full. I was satisfied. I also did this the other day with pasta. I made myself a little less and it wasn't that hard to figure out how to portion it out right. And didn't take much time. So I can't really use that excuse anymore.
It's also that time of the month - which lol, I know TMI. But it's something that I have always struggled with because I'm in pain, hungry and just don't want to move (and sometimes CAN'T move because of the pain). But overall, I did ok this week. I had one day that I consider "bad" because I gave in and binged. But I did gain control and that was it. And the worst pain day - I actually walked 5 miles with my friend after work. Which was a huge thing for me because I usually don't do anything on the worst day. I haven't had to deal with this much recently because I was able to skip it for months at a time but since I've decided to take a break from that - I'll now be dealing with it once a month, again. It sucks having endo. It really does.
I can't seem to break out of the 220s. It's been so annoying and frustrating because I know what to do and I can't seem to do it! I'm down to 220.6 or something and I keep getting to 220.something and then go on a binge and go back up. Hopefully this weekend with my plan of cardio and drinking a shit ton of water I'll be able to do it.
So yeah, this entry is kind of all over the place but it's good to be back and writing here. It's a good way for me to get my feelings out and figure things out. Hopefully I'll be able to write on a regular basis again! :)
